It is completely reasonable to not discuss your phd with your parents if their reactions just make you feel worse than you otherwise would.
It sounds like you've had a lot on your plate, and I'm really happy that even in the midst of everything you still completed the chapter. It might not be as polished as you wished, but you still did it in the midst of everything. I know that's not what your mind wants you to focus on, and I totally get not wanting to show people things that aren't polished and as good as you could make them, but you still have something complete. And that's the minimum, even if the minimum is rarely personally satisfying.
I hope that writing this out and venting is helping. I hope you have other support you can ask for. I hope you have time and space and ability to do something you enjoy and have even a moment of happiness in the midst of this spiral.
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winterfish
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Date: 2019-09-19 01:25 pm (UTC)It is completely reasonable to not discuss your phd with your parents if their reactions just make you feel worse than you otherwise would.
It sounds like you've had a lot on your plate, and I'm really happy that even in the midst of everything you still completed the chapter. It might not be as polished as you wished, but you still did it in the midst of everything. I know that's not what your mind wants you to focus on, and I totally get not wanting to show people things that aren't polished and as good as you could make them, but you still have something complete. And that's the minimum, even if the minimum is rarely personally satisfying.
I hope that writing this out and venting is helping. I hope you have other support you can ask for. I hope you have time and space and ability to do something you enjoy and have even a moment of happiness in the midst of this spiral.
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