gender stuff

So, uh, I know this is a bit of a crappy post to come back on (though remains to be seen if i stay back - rsd is one heck of a drug) but I've been kinda...struggling. A bit. There've been a few posts I've thought of making recently, about dressing fem when you're of a masc-leaning gender as a kind of camoflage, as a way of controlling what people see when they look at you, and about the strangeness of what transmeds have decided dysphoria can be, that it has to be about your chest or your genitals and if you don't feel bothered by those things you're not dysphoric, even if you have trouble with the shape of your hips, the width of your shoulders. It doesn't "count" if it's not one of the Big Two.

And I was going to approach these from a, a loudly, self-assuredly nonbinary perspective. They were going to be on tumblr and there was going to be a general sense of fight-me about it.

( invalidating my own gender under the cut, be careful maybe )